Entry 155

You know, there's a lot more Lucien fanart on the internet than I first anticipated...

A Hope, A Dream

Once all the stress is over,

What do I do then?

All year I look forward to the end,

But when the end comes,

I shy away.

I need to look up to the future,

I need to prepare myself for its harsh, endless blows

Like everyone else already has,

But it's hard when I don't have what they do.

I don't have a hope, or a dream;

I don't have anything to grasp onto

I don't have a sliver of an idea,

No possibilities or wishes.

I just don't know, I've never known,

I fear I never will know

But I fear the unknown

So I need to find a hope

I need to find a dream

And all of this will crash down  upon me

And smother me until I can't breathe.

"A Hope, A Dream," (c) Rebecca Grapentine, December 12th, 2011