Entry 108

You guessed it... another wolf.

Terror

My thoughts deceive me yet again.

Their horrible images play again and again in my mind

In an endless loop of time.

Repeating and repeating,

Just as shocking each time.

Out of nowhere,

I slam into them at a fast speed.

There'a s loud crash, bodies go flying...

I could cause such terrible things.

It makes me so insecure,

Which makes it more likely to happen.

Even my feelings have become a part

Of this endless loop.

Time is either too slow

Or never fast enough

When it comes to my terror-stricken senses.

At some point, I need to tell myself

"I really don't care anymore."

But it's so hard...

The images, the thoughts, the nightmares...

They're all against me.

How can I defeat the endless loop?

"Terror," (c) Rebecca Grapentine, June 23rd, 2011